Let it snow.

Snow, let it snow.

I love the snow, I mean love. Every year at my birthday I wish and pray for a snowstorm and every year it comes. Anyone who’s ever seen Gilmore Girls, I’m a Lorelei I feel snow deep in my blood. It’s part of me. So when the snow comes its feels like the world becomes soft, like I’m transported from and part of murders, con-artists, and cheats to a snow globe. In my safe little snow globe there’s child ice-skating and couples holding hands walking, there’s shops filled with parents picking out presents for Christmas. Everything is just perfect. 

Dorothy's Dairy for World War II [Project Four]

June 4, 1944
Dearest Mother,
I fear for the men in combat. I saw another man today mother his eyes held the most pain I have seen yet in this war. The men are shipping out to Normandy; Randy is among those who will be leaving in the first wave. I know he has not written lately, I believe he scared that he will not come back. To lose him will truly be like losing my heart. I hope soon this craziness will be over mother, than Randy and I may come home. I can introduce you to William mother. He has been the light in this. He promised me that he would look over Randy during the raid tomorrow.
Mother, I worry about the attack on the beaches. Many of our men fell ill. I have taking many of them in. Some men need extra rest and so I bring them food in bed. I fear that men are not eating properly and so I help make the meals. I hope they will be alright for attack. So many have fallen ill will disease that I do not know how to cure, and only two doctors are still with us. I fear the worst mother, and I pray for the best.
Sending you all my love,
Dorothy.


June 5, 2012
Dearest Mary,
Today the day is the day that ships take off. I know there is much at stake all I can think about is how happy life would have been if there was no war. Our lives would be complexly different and we would be married.The have shipped in more men. I go out to greet them and holding tea and cups I pass out the drink to refresh them on the journey. I a brief moment all is clam the men joke and smile at us. I’m scared that I will have to treat these men. Seeing there smiling faces and knowing where they come makes to so much harder when they die in my hands.
Mary, how I wish I had the strength you do. Mother is so far away now and I afraid of what father think I know they are fine in your care. Oh Mary I wish you well. I know you will be turning eighteen soon, but please stay home. Get an education and don’t follow in my and Randy footsteps. Look at what happen to John, Sister I morn him. Every man I treat I see our dear bother’s face. Every death I think of that man’s wife, sister and mother. I cruse this war and I wish it would end but none the less I will stay and heal those hurt by the selfiness of others. I wish the fighting would end and I wish the German would fail leaving the Allies victories once again.
Love you,
Dorothy
June 6, 1944
Dear Mother,
The men are shipping off today, it’s early and I can smell the gas from the ships, I see the men boarding and the look so nerves. I can when I stand close hear the prayers and the stories of family members. The sound of distance gun shots and screams of the soldiers. I break my heart; I can stop thinking that Randy is over there. I scared for him and William as well. I cannot be windowed before the marriage even takes place. Oh, mother I wish you were here. The other nurses and I are holding big mass. We pray and hope that are soldiers will come back.. Those of the commander that stay wills us stay that we should move farer inland. I agree mother, will heart breaker scream or fire I keep imagine William dead and lying beside him Randy. These ghost haunt my every move, I wish I could see what is happening. Mother dearest I will be home soon and I will be torn apart.
June 8, 2012
Dearest Father,
William is dead. He died protecting Randy, He died for me, and he died to protect my bother. Oh God the humanity. Randy survived lying underneath William dead body. The Germans did not see him and if they did Father they thought him upon the dead. Randy said he can get the smell of blood out of his mind. He said that men didn't even make it to the shore. As the men made their way to shore there was bodies blow to pieces and men clinging to life. He said he saw William drop down and ran he ran to him. He told Randy he needs to survive for his family; they could not lose other member. He told him that he love me with his whole heart. Father, Randy is alive. I need you to stop the pettiness and write to us. The commander said because of his injures that Randy can go home to heal, and father I have been giving permission to join him on his journey. You need to forgive me and Randy. I know the loss of John hit you the hardest. Father if you do not let us in then you will died alone and never know what good we are doing. I miss you Father.
Your daughter,
Dorothy

Genes.

My whole life, I was told I look like my Grandmother. I have her eyes and her laugh. It’s really hard for me to think like that. I'm the only one in the family that has her red hair. I miss her a lot and more and more lately all I see when I look in the mirror is my grandmother. It’s hard I barely got to know my Grandma and people commenting on how much I take after her is weird. Sometimes I wonder if there a great meaning behind genes.